I’m feeling a little better tonight about everything, because I can’t change what happened, but I know that I can get my two assignment due on Monday done probably by Sunday morning, giving me a little extra time to get the assignment I erased done if I can’t get it recovered.
I can’t stress over the things I cannot change. I just have to relax and get on with what needs to be done. No use crying and getting all emotional about it when I can’t change it.
Someone please distract me. I’m having the worst night.
Also, my dad can fuck off. He treats me and mum like we know NOTHING about computers, and thinks he can fix my problem.
No, dad. It hasn’t been deleted. It’s been saved over. I’m basically fucked.
And then he goes on about the computer guys we’re taking it to tomorrow saying they won’t know how to do it and will ruin my computer? THE FUCK?! These people are TRAINED to fix my problems, unlike you. And like FUCK we’re taking it to ‘your guys’, seeming as your computer freezes DAILY, has so many glitches and you still think it’s acceptable to use internet explorer. Fucking dumb idiot. If it were that easy to fix, I would have fixed it by now. I live on this laptop, I know how to work it.
Rage. So much rage.
managed to erase all the work I’d done on that 60% assignment that I spent over a week on, and had put the finishing touches on it today.
And it’s very unlikely that I’m going to be able to recover it. Mum’s taking in my computer and USB to see if they can fix it, otherwise I’ll have to spend my weekend re-doing it. I already have two other assignment due on fucking Monday, I don’t have any time AT ALL to get it done.
I hate that I’ve done this, how could I have been SO stupid??
You want to say Hi to the cute girl on the subway. How will she react? Fortunately, I can tell you with some certainty, because she’s already sending messages to you. Looking out the window, reading a book, working on a computer, arms folded across chest, body away from you = do not disturb. So, y’know, don’t disturb her. Really. Even to say that you like her hair, shoes, or book. A compliment is not always a reason for women to smile and say thank you. You are a threat, remember? You are Schrödinger’s Rapist. Don’t assume that whatever you have to say will win her over with charm or flattery. Believe what she’s signaling, and back off.
If you speak, and she responds in a monosyllabic way without looking at you, she’s saying, “I don’t want to be rude, but please leave me alone.” You don’t know why. It could be “Please leave me alone because I am trying to memorize Beowulf.” It could be “Please leave me alone because you are a scary, scary man with breath like a water buffalo.” It could be “Please leave me alone because I am planning my assassination of a major geopolitical figure and I will have to kill you if you are able to recognize me and blow my cover.”
On the other hand, if she is turned towards you, making eye contact, and she responds in a friendly and talkative manner when you speak to her, you are getting a green light. You can continue the conversation until you start getting signals to back off.
The fourth point: If you fail to respect what women say, you label yourself a problem.
There’s a man with whom I went out on a single date—afternoon coffee, for one hour by the clock—on July 25th. In the two days after the date, he sent me about fifteen e-mails, scolding me for non-responsiveness. I e-mailed him back, saying, “Look, this is a disproportionate response to a single date. You are making me uncomfortable. Do not contact me again.” It is now October 7th. Does he still e-mail?
Yeah. He does. About every two weeks.
This man scores higher on the threat level scale than Man with the Cockroach Tattoos. (Who, after all, is guilty of nothing more than terrifying bad taste.) You see, Mr. E-mail has made it clear that he ignores what I say when he wants something from me. Now, I don’t know if he is an actual rapist, and I sincerely hope he’s not. But he is certainly Schrödinger’s Rapist, and this particular Schrödinger’s Rapist has a probability ratio greater than one in sixty. Because a man who ignores a woman’s NO in a non-sexual setting is more likely to ignore NO in a sexual setting, as well.
So if you speak to a woman who is otherwise occupied, you’re sending a subtle message. It is that your desire to interact trumps her right to be left alone. If you pursue a conversation when she’s tried to cut it off, you send a message. It is that your desire to speak trumps her right to be left alone. And each of those messages indicates that you believe your desires are a legitimate reason to override her rights.
For women, who are watching you very closely to determine how much of a threat you are, this is an important piece of data.” —
an excerpt from Phaedra Starling’s “Schrödinger’s Rapist: or a guy’s guide to approaching strange women without being maced” (via lostgrrrls)
important things to think about.
So I have two assignments due tomorrow, one worth 60% and the other 40%. I’m a bit nervous. I just put the finishing touches on the 60% and am awaiting my amazing future-English-teacher-of-a-boyfriend to get home and read through it to make sure it’s all okay. Maybe pretty it up a little because he’s a perfectionist and amazing at everything to do with writing.
I’m just a little shaken with my confidence on my essays, because I got a 4 yesterday on an assignment which I swore I was at least going to be a 5 for. Even though 4’s a pass, I just had such high hopes for myself this term. Everyone told me how I’m meant to be a teacher and how GREAT I was going to do… but my marks aren’t really showing that. I’m just…. average.
Education is hard. Whoever said it was easy being a teacher is a douche-lord.
- Them: look
- Me: I saw that already